I Am

Moody. Difficult. Kind. Unsure. Disconnected. Lost. Crowded. Tangled. Pressured. Loved. Ignored. Hopeful. Scared. Ambitious. Learning. Growing. Lonely. Morose. Unique. Different. Unusual. Visual. Dreamer. Imaginative. Creative. Listener. Cracked. Stuck. Wisher. Blunt. Intelligent. Shy. Quiet. Open. Fearful. Faithless. Independent. Pessimistic. Opportunist. Unsatisfied. Timid. Strong. Bold. Confident. Wasting. Impatient. Alone. Pathetic. Important. Moving. Curious. Judging. Together. Pure. Modern. Daydreamer. Sound. Flawed. Inexperienced. Broken. Harsh. Pleaser. Inaccurate. Skilled. Polite. Knowledgeable. Burning. Young. Old. Soulful. Sophisticated. Accomplished. Unfinished. Pretty. Classic. Authentic. True. Transparent. Unclear. Messy. Abnormal. Clouded. Intricate. Good. Liar. Helpful. Bright. Mixed. Obscure. Small. Poor. Woman. Needy. Wanting. Unsuccessful. Gone. Used. Abused. Friendly. Organised. Chaotic. Problematic. Demanding. Easy. Irritating. Tough. Challenging. Painful. Heavy. Here. 

To Be

Desired. Connected. Visionary. Extraordinary. Creative. Evolved. Resilient. Persistent. Progressive. Veracious. Investigative. Evocative. Simple. Complicated. Provoking. Faithful. Sexual. Brave. Forceful. Trusting. Obsessed. Unrestrained. Courageous. Listener. Instinctive. Energetic. Personal. Private. Content. Engaging. Striving. Combative. Peaceful. Calm. Exceptional. Harmonious. Stable. Conflicting. Observant. Free. Personal. Helpful. Uplifting. Spiritual. Vital. Joyous. Enraging. Classic. Authentic. Jolting. Astounding. Breathing. Dynamic. Honest. Different. Outrageous. Safe. Flowing. Extreme. Important. Significant. Impressive. Critical. Essential. Powerful. Curious. Traveler. Original. Prolific. Innovative. Inspired. Old. New. Laborer. Tough. Soft. Sympathetic. Respectful. Kind. Generous. Loving. Loved. Happy. Wistful. Pensive. Troubled. Beastly. Heartbroken. Hopeful. Fortunate. Lucky. Lonely. Restless. Insane. Worthy. Moody. Immovable. Tragic. Woeful. Responsible. Cautious. Reckless. Enticing. Alone. Wanted. Overwhelming. Magical. Faulty. Flawless. Imperfect. Scandalous. Unbearable. Miserable. Enlightening. Loud. Expressive. Quiet. Secretive. Open. Heartfelt. Personable. Still.

Alive. 

What Will You Ask Me?

What will you ask me

After the hellos and how are you's?

When the pause starts to sink in

And the lights don't fill in the spaces

What will you ask me?

About my day

Or what I'm reading

My favourite places in a lonely city

Or why I've suddenly fallen silent

What will you ask me?

About why I can't speak around you

About the space you're taking up in my head

About the double time my heart is beating

What will you ask me?

Of the hours late at night I hope that I'm keeping you up

Like you are me

Or the hours replaying everything over again

Reading into what's not there

No, you will not ask me these things

Because you do not know

That my heart bubbles with these words but my tongue remains still

And I am not brave enough to ask

The risk is too great

The truth too devastating

So I will not ask you either

And we will stay hanging in between

Hello and how are you

Tragic

History is on repeat

It's been beautifully tragic

Cause nothing went wrong

Maybe I'm the breaker of my heart

It's tiring when you're a victim of yourself

There was a ghost upon my mind last night

Now he's in my heart

My veins

Under my skin

Whispering slow

Tell me I told you so

Because I don't know what to say

I'm begging the truth to bend

Maybe even break

I knew I could never pretend

To save myself

I'm dreading the feeling that this will be end

But the wave of relief will make my world shake

I should have known better

This was not meant to last forever

I just prayed that I wouldn't let me down

Now that I have it sends a cold shiver, even an ocean

Hopefully this time I won't drown

Mile End

Dead end drive
Round and round
I've been here before
On the edge
At a mile end

Haunting whispers
To lead me astray
Hiding behind walls
Trembling eyes
Somebody take me back
Stop the hurricane creeping in
Don't let it bring me back here

On your shoulders
I'll go home
To stay
Far from the rain and that dead end drive
I feel I'm missing myself
Have I been gone for a while?

We Promise

Isn't it a bit much now?

Leaving the flames in her hand

She set the world on fire

The end will be with us before too long

Nobody to reach on the telephone wire

Secrets and the silence are to take over this life

Our hearts and our souls using up their might

We're all going down but we're keeping quiet

We're so desperate to be numb and to turn the page

But there's not enough distractions in the iPhone age

Could it be lost now?

Repeating a played-out band who puts faith in a liar

Slaves to the few who take this way too far

Scratching out the truth 'fore the words are strong

Loud scattered voices saying which way is wrong

Poison in the water floods through our minds

Beaten down lungs breathing for the blind

Slipped from the grip of broken hands

No longer can we stay in the broken lands

What do we do now?

Guilty feet stand to watch the oceans rising

Can't do this now when our fear is climbing

What do we have if peace is running from us?

Crawling through the dark to find something just

Don't leave us here where we're scared

Have you gone further now than you ever dared?

We know your anger, your rage when you're restless

But we'll be good now

Forever

We promise

Better Off Silent

Please don't tell me that it's true

That the sea has dried

Doing my best

Keep my tongue untied

A sinking secret that's hard to find

Buried down deep

You blaze up my mind

The skeleton's out

Just please be kind

Shedding my heart

Till the dust will fly

And I know I'm wrong

I won't look up now

Knowing that you're gone

Even in the wind the beats are violent

Lost before found

I'm better off silent

A carved out smile on a broken face

Locked down door

A love that leaves no trace

We Will Dance

Walk me home
Footsteps on fire
Follow me over the hairline cracks
This heavy night is tired

We line up
We move together
I can find you in darkest weather
Stay behind me here forever
And we'll dance

On the road and over fields
Past the buildings and machines
Through the winding autumn leaves
We will dance

I'm with you
I'm not alone
The best friend I'll never know
In the night you shake my bones
And I'm running a cold fever
Cause you're still behind me
There forever

On the road and over fields
On top of bridges
In the streams
Whirling through my favourite dreams
We will dance

I keep turning but I can't see you
Only flashes in the night
How I'd love to take your hand
So we could dance in the sunlight

Another World

Expensive thoughts in empty minds
Bought hearts in fake confetti
Talking down through painted lines
Taking time rushing blind
Proud vanity strikes me smothered
Drip colour from your eyes
Selfie strut down Devil's street
Champagne gold pounding paramount lies

Sharp tongues and material finds weigh into my frame
Imagination save me all the same
Missing words freeze my reason
Tinted views and silent claws set in
Banknotes needed keep me longer
Make my thin skin stick up stronger

Detached moods under fur coats
Distant conversations inscribed onto my bones
Seeping, crawling serpent dances
Keep us all alone

Blinding lights scream out through the walls

And a crystal palace protects plastic dolls

Sell out spies, open pockets

Hide outs of unending prophets

Speaking in a drone,

I am everything you don't know