In The Sky

You're the storm and the thunder
In the heart of the sun
When the lonely planets align

Together

Alone
Early
Easy
Slow
Quiet
Gentle
Breathe
You
Me
Us

It

I think about it
It makes it worse
I leave it
It's still here

I try to reason with it
And then I plead
I beg
I bribe
I taunt
I mock
I cry
I laugh
I scream
I talk
I listen
It still won't go

It sits
And it waits
And it will never hide

It's here
It's with me
And if I'm careful
I can keep it in front of me

Eye to eye
Balanced on a seesaw
Here we will stay
As I go up and down
Up and down
Up and down
Forever more

Fading Faith

It's going round in circles

I've been here before

I can't stop coming back here again

I thought I knew this

I was certain of something I've never tried

The mirror brings me back

You've never tried this

Only a few ever get it

It's not in your blood

It's not a passion but an idea

Hot talent-less air

Hit rock bottom

Right out of the gate

That's where you'll end up

At the bottom

In your corner

All on your own

No one else

I'll come find you there

Cause you won't leave

You're all or nothing

Irrational and unrealistic

Why do I do this

A fear of being a nobody

Or losing a life I never had

It's not meant for me

But I still chase it

For all the wrong reasons

My faith is fading

For what was never there

That's why they don't believe me

And why I turn the tables on myself

Someone tell me

Where do I go now?

You'll tell me no
Then you'll say it again
Repeat yourself indefinitely

Leave me lying in your waste
Kick me until my teeth shatter
And my voice breaks
I'll stay quiet in the dark

Please stand up
But I won't stand out
Stay very low
Hear no again

Turn your back on me
I don't need you

But you'll tell me no
Then you'll say it again
Repeat yourself indefinitely

Still down, I'm beaten
I tried
Go to sleep
Breathe slow
It could be yes tomorrow

I Am

Moody. Difficult. Kind. Unsure. Disconnected. Lost. Crowded. Tangled. Pressured. Loved. Ignored. Hopeful. Scared. Ambitious. Learning. Growing. Lonely. Morose. Unique. Different. Unusual. Visual. Dreamer. Imaginative. Creative. Listener. Cracked. Stuck. Wisher. Blunt. Intelligent. Shy. Quiet. Open. Fearful. Faithless. Independent. Pessimistic. Opportunist. Unsatisfied. Timid. Strong. Bold. Confident. Wasting. Impatient. Alone. Pathetic. Important. Moving. Curious. Judging. Together. Pure. Modern. Daydreamer. Sound. Flawed. Inexperienced. Broken. Harsh. Pleaser. Inaccurate. Skilled. Polite. Knowledgeable. Burning. Young. Old. Soulful. Sophisticated. Accomplished. Unfinished. Pretty. Classic. Authentic. True. Transparent. Unclear. Messy. Abnormal. Clouded. Intricate. Good. Liar. Helpful. Bright. Mixed. Obscure. Small. Poor. Woman. Needy. Wanting. Unsuccessful. Gone. Used. Abused. Friendly. Organised. Chaotic. Problematic. Demanding. Easy. Irritating. Tough. Challenging. Painful. Heavy. Here. 

To Be

Desired. Connected. Visionary. Extraordinary. Creative. Evolved. Resilient. Persistent. Progressive. Veracious. Investigative. Evocative. Simple. Complicated. Provoking. Faithful. Sexual. Brave. Forceful. Trusting. Obsessed. Unrestrained. Courageous. Listener. Instinctive. Energetic. Personal. Private. Content. Engaging. Striving. Combative. Peaceful. Calm. Exceptional. Harmonious. Stable. Conflicting. Observant. Free. Personal. Helpful. Uplifting. Spiritual. Vital. Joyous. Enraging. Classic. Authentic. Jolting. Astounding. Breathing. Dynamic. Honest. Different. Outrageous. Safe. Flowing. Extreme. Important. Significant. Impressive. Critical. Essential. Powerful. Curious. Traveler. Original. Prolific. Innovative. Inspired. Old. New. Laborer. Tough. Soft. Sympathetic. Respectful. Kind. Generous. Loving. Loved. Happy. Wistful. Pensive. Troubled. Beastly. Heartbroken. Hopeful. Fortunate. Lucky. Lonely. Restless. Insane. Worthy. Moody. Immovable. Tragic. Woeful. Responsible. Cautious. Reckless. Enticing. Alone. Wanted. Overwhelming. Magical. Faulty. Flawless. Imperfect. Scandalous. Unbearable. Miserable. Enlightening. Loud. Expressive. Quiet. Secretive. Open. Heartfelt. Personable. Still.

Alive.