Friday 19 February 2016

Wednesday 10 February 2016

It

I think about it
It makes it worse
I leave it
It's still here

I try to reason with it
And then I plead
I beg
I bribe
I taunt
I mock
I cry
I laugh
I scream
I talk
I listen
It still won't go

It sits
And it waits
And it will never hide

It's here
It's with me
And if I'm careful
I can keep it in front of me

Eye to eye
Balanced on a seesaw
Here we will stay
As I go up and down
Up and down
Up and down
Forever more

Friday 5 February 2016

Fading Faith

It's going round in circles
I've been here before
I can't stop coming back here again
I thought I knew this
I was certain of something I've never tried
The mirror brings me back
You've never tried this
Only a few ever get it
It's not in your blood
It's not a passion but an idea
Hot talent-less air
Hit rock bottom
Right out of the gate
That's where you'll end up
At the bottom
In your corner
All on your own
No one else
I'll come find you there
Cause you won't leave
You're all or nothing
Irrational and unrealistic
Why do I do this
A fear of being a nobody
Or losing a life I never had
It's not meant for me
But I still chase it
For all the wrong reasons
My faith is fading
For what was never there
That's why they don't believe me
And why I turn the tables on myself
Someone tell me

Where do I go now?